As Alive As Dead

I like birthdays. It is one day in the year when everyone remembers you, calls you, wishes you. As a blogger it is my first birthday. Earlier I used to read blogs, but was never convinced to start one of my own. I could not write personal posts like Sid. Neither was I a great storyteller like Nothingman nor could I not compare my writing skills with Zedekiah and later with Alesea. With lot of apprehensions and scepticism, one fine day, motivated by this one blog, I logged on to blogspot and posted my first entry. That was a year back( 26-03-07). Surprisingly my writing got readers. Some old friends and some new. My post frequency varied from month to month, but I kept coming back. So did my readers- Kindaweird, A Shade of Blue, The Crazy Apothecary, DM, Meki, Alesea ,Nothingman and many more. I just have one thing to say to all of you—Thank You! Hopefully I would have more to write this year as well. Hopefully you will still read it.

Free to be sad Free to be happy Free to be wrong Free to be right Free to eat Free to sleep Free to play Free to stay Free to sing Free to dance Free to choose Free to move Free from guilt Free from expectations Free from the world Free to be Free to be free Free- when will I be?

The ghosts of past Lost in the pages, innumerable Shout out and try to tell me something. I do not understand the language that I spoke once. I scream frantically for help But I am all alone In the mess that is not all mine. I try to break the walls around me But there are many I wish to go past them someday. The dreams now shattered, hurt my eye. The tears dried long ago. I run away from these ghosts Only to find them by my bedside everynight. *************************************************************** I don't know where it came from:)

I sleep with my headphones on one night,listening to 'What goes around, comes around'. And I dream about the figure given below.... What goes around,comes around, quite literally..heheh Wonder what it means. If you want to get into deeper meanings, it might indicate that life comes full cirlce, you get what you give...and the likes.. I just think I am missing school too much these days..hehe Oh bdw, all the best for all thoe appearing for Boards.

No matter how much I try, I can't seem to keep this song away from my life.. So here another version of Dard-e-Disco.. Thanks to Shagun and Preeta..may the madness continue... That hot chick, that blue fairy Has worked her magic on me She stole sleep from these eyes Restlessness in this heart of mine Im helpless, im lonely im mindless Who do I explain all this to? In my heart is Painy Disco (x4) Painy Disco Painy Disco Second, second wishes were getting requested Second, second, my courage was getting tested Rain of mercy was falling falling on me Rain of mercy was making me more thirsty The view then became blank for me My love, my beloved, my honey He left me and he broke my heart on the 26th of last month-o. ************************* The rights of this song remain with the blog and the creators..Dont do dare copy this unless you want to be sued by a MultiNational